My first obsession with a fictional character was at the wee
age of 6, when my mother and father took me to the Met in
New York to see ‘The Phantom of the opera.’
Immediately, I was in love.
Right in front of my eyes, and singing to me in a beautiful
tenor, was a misunderstood, suave and half-handsome devil
of a man in a mask and a long black cape.
I know all the songs, it’s on my ipod. I can’t help that the
phantom is musically talented.
Even now, my legs are weak.
I ignore the killing and his half-marred face. Other than that,
if I ever get lost in the catacombs of Paris, do not come looking
for me.
Later on in life I watched ‘The Silence of the Lambs.’
Aside from it being an awesome movie, I found Hannibal
Lecter to be debonair, never mind the eating people thing.
He’s smart, sexy and charming. If Dr. Lecter wasn’t imprisoned
for cannibalism and murder, I’m sure he’d have a finedining
dinner date every night, a woman who appreciated
good wine.
Do you see a trend? This is most typical, but only in my fictional
fantasy. Sorry to disappoint you, but I am in no way
attracted to the real life ‘bad boy’ image.
‘V from Vendetta’ also inspired a love interest. The character
‘V’ was determined, sophisticated and stacked. I feel for his
dark past. He is all-consumed from being tortured by the
English government after terrorism threats made the country
more like a communistic state.
. I want to give him a hug and be his reason for compassion.
I want to date someone with an accent.
I recently watched the program ‘Dexter.’
Dexter is one of my favorites. He is a sociopathic serial killer,
who also works as a blood splatter analyst for the Miami
police department.
What I love about Dexter is his lack of understanding for
human emotion. I love his muscles edging out from underneath
his well-fitted clothes. I love his handsome face. I love
that he only kills and chops up bad people.
Dexter’s father was a police officer who knew his adopted
son was a sociopath and just couldn’t help but kill. So he
taught him how to do it well; how to cover his tracks, how to
only kill those that hurt others.
I need to buy the DVDs.
Whenever my roommate and I have little to do we flip on
‘Law and Order: Criminal Intent.’ And not all my obsessions
are evil killers. Detective Robert Goren, played by Vincent
D’Onofrio, is my TV boyfriend.
Although he has an inherent predisposition to schizophrenia,
Goren is extremely intelligent, clever and troubled. All the
while he’s solving crimes and losing his temper and standing
a not-too-shabby 6 feet and some inches.
My most recent addition to my fictional longing is Edward
Cullen from Stephanie Meyer’s popular book series. You meet
him in ‘Twilight’ as Bella’s vampire boyfriend.
I am not alone here.
Vampires are sexy.
Vampires are meant to be sexy.
This vampire is written as a young Adonis and a very loving
and caring boyfriend to boot.
I’m pretty sure I am ruined on all things actual relationships
after reading this book.
There is going to be a movie. I hope they cast well.
I don’t want to think about what all this says about me. I just
know that certain characters- bad, misunderstood and hot-
have me longing for their reality and not my own.
I never wanted Prince Charming to sweep me up and take
me away, and I believe that I am a well-adjusted person.
Growing up I never wanted to be a ballerina and dance
sweetly and angelically to lure my handsome knight into the
depths of my heart.
I kinda wanted to be a vampire and have my undead
boyfriend ravage their castle at night.